Showing posts with label weight gain. Show all posts
Showing posts with label weight gain. Show all posts

Friday, 22 May 2009

Calorie Boredom

I am afraid that I have become a calorie counter... In an attempt to put on weight I'm counting calories in order to eat at least 2500 calories a day. Recently, my weight has plateau-ed and I could really do with putting on another stone. I am keeping a food diary to make sure I eat enough every day, but now it's starting to dominate my conversations. I know at any given point in a day just how many calories I've eaten and which foods are the higher calorie options on the menu. Food is no longer fun, it's fuel. I can't enjoy something unless I know how much it's contributing to my daily target. I get panicky when I reach dinner-time and I'm not at least half-way through my quota. I love food, this is not right, I want to rediscover the enjoyment. I know it's not forever, but it's already boring me. 1175 calories so far...

Saturday, 9 May 2009

Summer is here?

Officially, winter is over. Daylight Savings Time is a clue, so is my veg-box provider discontinuing their Winter Box. The part of my brain that is supposed to start craving salad and barbecue food at this time of year does not know. I'm still in the mood for soups and stews. What's wrong? I have on many occasions confessed my love of comfort food, but surely I need to get over this soon? I'm trying, my next veg-box will contain the salad box, and I'm attempting to go down the cold-meat-and-coleslaw route for lunch these days.

Perhaps it's the fact that the house we live in is cold all year round, or that every time the sun fights it's way out it rains, or maybe it just that the extra stressfulness of my life is pushing me to seek solace in warm and starchy comfort food. Whatever it is, I'm still a big fan of chicken. Roasted, poached, grilled, or pan fried, I'm happy. Then there's the stock. Risottos and soups are abundant. My craving for comfort food, at the moment, is constant. I finish one meal and I'm planning my next. I'm always hungry! I suppose it's a good thing, it'll help me put on weight. My dietitian is still concerned for my weight and I'd be happy to gain a kilo, or five. And yet, my weight has stayed the same all month, not an ounce, or gram, have I gained. Rubbish.

Well, I'm hungry and I have some chicken and pasta in the fridge...

Tuesday, 19 June 2007

Progress

I've found someone who will make our wedding cake with a gluten and nut free tier! And her cakes are beautiful, I have actually fallen in love with some of her designs. So we now have, cake, invitations, The Father-In-Law-To-Be is sorting our cars, I have a dress and an idea for the bridesmaids, The Fiance has chosen his suit and Best Man. All we need now is a bow tie for my dad and an outfit for you mum! I'm going to visit them this weekend. You have no idea how much I need this trip. I've been really withdrawn and tearful recently, I know this can be a sympton of Coeliacs, but I think its a combination of self-image issues (I hate being this skinny and I think that I look unhealthy) and frustration that I've not miraculously got better in 2 months. What I need is a few days of mum and dad time and lots of yummy home cooking. Even just the thought of not having to cook for myself for a few days cheers me up!!

Packing for Mum and Dad's is crazy. I'm going for 4 nights so I'll need 4 sachets of Maxijul, 2 bottles of Calogen, 8 Enlive Plus drinks, one loaf of gluten free bread (Mum and I are going to bake some too), and half a pack of gluten free crispbread. That's on top of my regular Crohn's Disease medication! I'm off to a wedding in France the weekend after so will need to think about what I can take there, I won't be having home cooked meals so need to think about how I can add my weight gain supplements to food while I'm away. I wonder if I can charge my excess baggage to the NHS?!

I've been reading up a bit on Coeliacs and I think I understand a bit better the reasons behind all my various symptoms. I was very interested to read that the main areas of malabsorbtion are fats and lactose. I'm keeping a food diary so that I can look at my diet to see what I might need to change. I'll talk to the Dietitian next week when she weighs me.

Thursday, 7 June 2007

Gluten-free-nut-cake or nut-free-gluten-cake?

Hmmm... The Fiance's parents are coming next week. They want to see a prototype invitation, we haven't agreed on a design yet. All my ideas have been rejected by The Fiance, who says he "doesn't care what it looks like, I just want you to design them" but who has disliked every suggestion. I was wide awake until well after 3am last night (despite ridiculous exhaustion) worrying about it. On top of that, we need to find someone to make our wedding cake with a gluten free tier and to ensure that it's nut free (The Fiance can't eat nuts). I think we should have a pavlova wedding cake. That solves all our problems, and pavlova is brilliant! I knew things would get stressful once we hit the 6 months to go mark, I just didn't factor in the fact that The Fiance would want so much say in everything, and that his opinion would oppose mine in everything. The only area in which I've had complete autonomy is the flowers, but he's not chosen his ushers so I can't order any buttonholes because I don't know numbers... Seriously, I thought weddings were meant to be all about the Bride (and Groom) not the Groom (and his family). I need to visit my mum and dad, regain perspective.

Now for the good news. I've been seeing a dietitian for Coeliacs, obviously, but also to help me gain weight. She weighed me yesterday and in the first week of using all the weight-gain supplements I've put on 1 1/2 lbs! Ok, so it doesn't seem like much but to see the scales moving upwards not downwards is very exciting for me. I'm a bridesmaid for a friend in August, hopefully I'll have put on enough weight by then that I won't look like a real-life stick person. My target is to have put on about a stone by the end of August so that when I have my first wedding dress fitting it doesn't drop off me!